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Well, we are now in March and it has being just over 2 months since my last drink on New Years Eve. I’d thought I’d give a report on my progress and on what has changed.
I a still going strong, I’m glad to report, though there were a few times where I was tempted but I keep this place in mind, I simply do not want to report that I’ve let people down which is stengthening my resolve in this regard.
It isn’t easy though. For one thing, getting plastered is the default thing many people do at weekends ( be it at home or at the bar ) and aside from that, there are not really many socail oppurtunities. I did go out once since, not drinking of course and it was a crap night. I’ve enjoyed myself sober in the past but I’m now noticing that even the smell of certain alcoholic drinks is digusting me.
Them, connected to my goal of going to Oz later this year, I’ve become a bit of a hermit. In other words, I haven’t being out in a socail setting much. It kind of sucks but the payoff will be worth it in the end ( I hope! ) For now, I’m just keeping myself occuppied with online gaming and the fighting game community ( on that, a word of warning, Street Fighter X Tekken is coming out this week, this will probably effect my posts here for a while! )
Good thing there are still tournaments being run but I feel so much could be done than what currently is being done. I wish for something more progressive, maybe I should take it as a means to innovate more.
Regardless, I’m still saving a lot of money and am slowly working towards my goals. It’s slow but I am getting there and I’m pretty certain I’ll be able to entertain no drinking for the rest of the year as well.
Hey, being under prepared and a self inflicted injury ( hangover ) means I won’t be making a proper new post today, will post something later on this week, though.
A Response To A Call Out From Niall Doherty or Why I Still Suck at Fighting Games ( and What I Am Going To Do About It )
This an expanded version of my response to the latest post over on Niall Doherty’s Disrupting the Rabblement and as such is being done on the fly. I am posting this here to make myself more accountable for my actions.
A few months ago, just as I was really starting to get into this whole life style design thing, Niall Doherty of Disrupting the Rabblement made a post asking to share our biggest most ridiculous goals. As I’m a bit of a fighting game enthusiast, I knew my goal would be related to that: Here is my comment from that post in full:
My biggest, most ridiculous goal?
Its so big and ridiculous, that I’ve placed in my head, one step above the number 1 goal item in my list, you could call it goal #0, if you may.
Anyways, the goal is to win SvB ( Super Verus Battle ) , Evo and SBO ( Super Battle Opera ) – all in the same year. Before you all look at me confused and wondering what I’m on about – They are all fighting video game tournaments. Namely the 3 biggest majors – One based in Europe ( SvB ) one based in America ( Evo ) and one based in Japan ( SBO. )
The standard is extremely high ( especially in the Japanese one ) and most people would be content with winning just one of them. Now, don’t get me wrong, I would be very Happy to win even one of them but achieving this goal would be a very nice bonus. My standard is no where near the best players in the fighting game scene ( YET ) but hey, let me dream and let me imagine that impossible is nothing!
That all said, I am well aware that my biggest most ridiculous goal could change in the next few years. This is a sort of goal that I if I don’t achieve, its no big deal, ( I have plenty of other neat goals to achieve as well ) I have made a ton of great friends from my time in the Irish fighting game scene already. Not that I’m selling myself short here but its just food for my mind and they say its all about the journey, not the destination.
A few things have happened since then, an incident involving the poor treatment of international players at SBO took place which on top of other issues relating to the event, have put me off really wanting to ever go to SBO. I’m not saying this as a way to cop myself out, I simply DO NOT wish to be part of event where it is clear the organizers have no real clue what is going on and are only doing it for the money, thank you!
Anyway, in Niall’s latest post, he called out on several people based on comments from that post, including me! My intial reaction to this:
Yeah, I like other people don’t like getting called out like that! It was very awkward but at the same it was refreshing. Not really used to being called like this on the internet, at least it wasn’t for something stupid! 😉
Anyway seeing, that I’m here, I might as well as paste the comment I left here:
Oh god, I like everyone else, don’t like being called out like this, ha! Here is me cringing when you started on the calls out in the video!
Anyway, unfortunately, I don’t have good news to report. I have crashed out badly at the few tournaments I was it. One occasion was so bad for me, I was letting myself get really pissed off and that isn’t exactly a healthy response to a bad situation now, is it?
It seems like I hit a bit of a wall recently. Truth be told, I haven’t really being practicing enough. I don’t many other people in the scene have being either for the simple reason the game we play is an unbalanced mess. So much so the developers have had to bring out a new version next month owing to complaints!
Still, that is not a reason for to next practice, I did spend some time practicing some small things but then wondering why I was still losing. So, was recently able to ask a top player online about this and gave me some blunt advice on me making notes on why I’m losing which I have applied when I watch back on matches I lose.
Like I said, I hit a bit of a wall recently but its one I wish to overcome and will overcome eventually.
Thanks for the call out, now you get back to learning Spanish!
Yeah, as you can see, I haven’t being keeping it up! In fact, I kind of regressed lately, which royally sucks. Anyway, seeing that accountability is a good thing encouraged here – I am going to publicly set a related goal here to hold myself accountable.
By next May at the lastest – I will have won at least 1 local Fighting Game tournament.
I have no idea if I can do this – no wait, that is a defeatist attitude right there. I will do my up most to achieve this goal, which means a lot more practice for me and less mocking around.
But this only the start, reader. My next post, I intend to create myself a list of goals, one bigger than the others – maybe even stealing an idea from Man Vs Clock and set a time limit. Till then, I will leave with this one.
Until next time
In my time on this earth so far, I have seen a lot of things, the fall of the twin towers, the deaths of numerous famous figures ( and family members, ) the changing trends in music, fashion, art, tv, movies. Basically, I have seen a whole lot of change in this time, you could say.
However, it amazes the amount of people who give out when change happens! ‘ What, i costs how much now!? ‘ ‘ This game is too slow! ‘ ‘ I hate this type of music, when it did it become so popular all of a sudden!? ‘ Then you have thse same people going ‘ Back in my day, things better, games were better. ‘ Blah blah blah
I’m no stranger to resisiting change myself. I confess I’m a bit of a dance music fan, though mostly these days I listen to trance. Regardless, you could imagine back at the start of the 2000s, just as I was going into my teenaged years, when RnB & Rap completely took over in the mianstream, I was kind of less than impressed!
Heh, back then, I used to think it was the world conspiring against me and that it was a step down from what was there before ( I’ll leave the recent emergence of dubstep out of this methinks. ) Anyway, I resisted it greatly and it left me miserable for a while but I got over it, accepted it and realised that the what was popular now will not be popular forever, then there was fun to be had when I would joke ‘ Well, the next type of music to be popular will probably sound like noise! ‘ ( And then…. Dubstep! )
Point is, I got over myself and accepted the change. In fact, the older I got, the more open to change I became. Granted, I can still be a bit of a stubborn fecker when it comes to some things but I for one, am open to change in my life. Besides, living your life NOT expecting change is just plain insanity!
Seriously, a lot of people expect to live through thier lives without having thier routine, status quo or nice neat miserable shit upset. Its unrealistic, change is inevitable, the status quo will be upset permentaly. You should embrace the change rather than hide from it, that is what I say.
The Following is based on a toastmasters speech I delivered on Wednesday, August 24th, 2011. I thought I would post it here as I make an observation about how our fear can dictate our lives, though I did it here in context of the whole ‘ End of the World ‘ nonsense.
The Stock markets are crashing, London is burning, bombs are flying everywhere, natural disasters are happening at increasing rates, people are revolting all over the world ( Arab Spring anyone? ) Things aren’t exactly looking too good in the world these days. You look at the state the world is in and wonder what the hell is going on. Then maybe, just maybe, you begin to think that the Mayans were right and that this is a sign that the world is indeed ending.
‘ OH NO! THE WORLD IS ENDING! WE’RE ALL GOING TO DIE! ‘
OK, OK, calm the hell down. Sure things are a bit chaotic in the world these days but let me get one thing straight – The world is not ending. Please, get that nonsense out of your head. I’m not saying that bad things are not going to happen ( or happening as we speak ) but we’re are not facing an extinction level event any time soon. Allow me to elaborate on this.
I think the first thing worth talking about is the last time a similar large scale ‘ end of the world ‘ event was forcasted. I’m talking about Y2K. This was simply a computer bug where on midnight of December 31st, 1999. Computers would think it was 1900 instead the year 2000. HOWEVER, the media completely blew this out of proportion, claiming that stock markets would crumble, that computers would blow up, planes would literally fall the sky and all other sorts of nasty stuff. Naturally, this led to people thinking the world would end and thats without even taking in account all the end of the world talk assoicated with the year 1999 to begin with!
BUT as we all now know, nothing happened, nothing feel out of the sky, no computers blew up. In short, the world did not end and the worst that happened was a few sick heads the next morning. The truth was it was a sick ploy by money grabbing companies to make a quick buck over people’s paranoia and it sadly worked. Hell, I fell for it myself as a gullible 14 year old but its make made sure I wouldn’t fall for something like that again.
Which brings us the next so called ‘ extinction level event ‘ – 2012. I am sure you have all heard of it by now, the Mayans predicted the world would end on December 21st of next year. Once again, the mainstream media are saying a lot of nasty stuff will happen, they even made a film about it!
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Its makes me wonder, do people remember Y2K at all and how much of a non event it was? I bet 2012 wil be similar. Now, I personally think something will happen next year, but not what the doomsayers talk of. I’m not sure of what but if your expecting the film 2012 to be played out for real, you will be very disappointed.
If think about it, one thing that seems to be assoicated with all this end of the world nonsense is fear. Fear is a natural human emotion. We fear the unknown and the change that comes with it. However, that same emotion is also open for abuse by the media. They WANT you to be living in fear, they want you to fear the world around you, to fear everyone, to the fear that the sky is going to fall. I think it all comes to down one thing – MONEY. Yes, the more you fear, the more you’ll spend to make yourself feel better.
Do not get me started on what people are willing to compromise on when they are living in fear, just look towards the ridiculous ‘ secuirty ‘ measures in America as an example of a fear based society gone mad. ( TSA Security mesaures at airports anyone? do a impression of putting on a glove ) What about the Dracoraion measures that are going to be brought into England over the riots, all because of the fear people now have because of it. Remember what Benjamin Franklin said: ‘ They who can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety, deserve neither liberty nor safety. ‘ This applies to us all, not just America.
When you are in fear, be of terrorists or indeed the end of the world, you are not being yourself. Now don’t get me wrong, it is OK to be fearful sometimes, fear can be a great motivator at times. Fear and and the regrets associated to giving into it can really help people grow. However, to live in fear all the time is a poison, a delusion. Contrary to what you may think, you cannot thrive on fear, it will only serve to diminish you and those around you.
So, the main message I want to convey tonight is that world is not going to end any time soon, there is no need to be in fear. However, should I be wrong and the worst comes to be. I can assure that the human spirit is greater than any forces that will try to destroy it, we can and will find a way through it. So even in our worst hours, you will not need to cower in fear. The world is beautiful place. A chaotic, but beautiful place, explore it and make the most of what you have right now.